not broken just bent

No query updates this week, sorry. I don’t have the spoons for it. It’s not good, though. Got another rejection this week. A nice one. So, silver lining. Also, I fully stole this title from that P!nk song, which I love (except for the super-blatant gaslighting: the male singer literally says, “It’s all in yourContinue reading “not broken just bent”

sometimes it really is okay

If you’ve been reading my stuff (and thank you for that!), you’ll know that I have depression and anxiety. It’s not awesome most of the time. I get so used to things being not awesome that I forget that sometimes things can be, you know, awesome. Sometimes there really isn’t anything to be worried about,Continue reading “sometimes it really is okay”

the unbearable heaviness of covid

Sometimes I wonder why I’m struggling. Then I remember that we are seventeen thousand months into a massive global pandemic, with no end in sight. And now there’s a new baby pandemic that is breaking off from the first one, and is a million times worse. It’s bad. And although we can be grateful thatContinue reading “the unbearable heaviness of covid”

there will be other sunny days

Last week, I broke my foot. Well, not actually broke my foot. I just fell on some ice and twisted it under me. It hurt a lot, and I was embarrassed. A driver stopped to help. Anyway, it all worked out and ended up fine, except for my fucked-up foot. I was disappointed because IContinue reading “there will be other sunny days”

everything is terrible and nothing is okay

People are dying of Covid around the world. ICU’s are being overwhelmed. And this morning, I heard about a 10-year-old who died from Covid a couple of provinces over from me. Shit’s getting really real. And all of the support structures we’ve so carefully set up in our lives are now kaput. Everyone we wouldContinue reading “everything is terrible and nothing is okay”