Something strange has happened this week. A couple months ago, I’d broken apart into a million jagged pieces. And then I kind of…. stayed apart in a million pieces. And then something really weird happened. I just sort of… stopped being in a million pieces. It wasn’t like I put the pieces back together, orContinue reading “on my way”
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all the things i’ve lost along the way
I live in an apartment building, and my laundry room is on a different floor from my unit. Which means that I need to carry my laundry up a floor, in an overstuffed laundry basket (cuz you know a bitch is gonna get their money’s worth on a load of laundry!). Because of the massiveContinue reading “all the things i’ve lost along the way”
unloveable
I am crying as I stand over a pan of scrambled eggs. Trying not to let the tears fall in. Trying not to let my kid see me crying. I had taken the day off work because my other kid had a doctor’s appointment, and my ex is out of town. I was on myContinue reading “unloveable”
sprinting a marathon
I came home from work exhausted. Like, so exhausted that I didn’t even feel exhausted. I dropped my backpack and walked to the bathroom and poured a bath. I grabbed a protein bar for supper and sat in the bath and watched RuPaul’s Drag Race and ate my protein bar. I actually felt emotionally okay,Continue reading “sprinting a marathon”
the seasonality of wellbeing
So…. I took a brief, unexplained hiatus from this blog, and I apologise for that. I wish I would say that I was using it to get healthy. I suppose in some ways I was— I am definitely healthier than I was before. But I am also not much further along in my writing andContinue reading “the seasonality of wellbeing”
healing pains
This week, I took my kids camping. By myself. For the first time ever on my own. When my marriage ended, I didn’t take any of the camping supplies because they were all at the back of the basement and because I didn’t have the energy to dig through it. And I didn’t want toContinue reading “healing pains”
opening up
Query update: Sorry. Nothing yet. I know I said soon– it’s coming. I promise. OMG, you guys. Yesterday, I went to a restaurant. Like, a real restaurant, with people and tables and menus. Inside the restaurant, even. And get this: I didn’t wear a mask. I looked around, and none of the other customers wereContinue reading “opening up”
unabsorbing
Query update: No update yet. Things are lightening up soon, though. Soon, friends. Soon. I recently asked my friend to do a Tarot reading for me. I wanted to know what I could do to heal from all the shit that’s been heaped on top of me. After she did the regular reading, she tackledContinue reading “unabsorbing”
boring mom summer
Query update: Nada. Sorry. I’m almost ready to get back at it. It’s my week with the kids. And it’s also like a million degrees outside. So we’re all a bit on edge. Work on my day job has eased, so I have less stress. But without the extra stress, I also don’t have asContinue reading “boring mom summer”
dissociation and me
Query update: Still at a standstill, sorry. Life. Hopefully soon, I’ll get some energy to move on it. I’ve been thinking about dissociation a lot recently. I hadn’t really ever thought about it until a couple years ago. It hadn’t occurred to me that it could be something that I could have experienced. I’m notContinue reading “dissociation and me”